Hello everyone!Today I want to pour my heart out and also want some guidance. Basically, I am already iIN IRS since 2012. Cleared in the age of 23.however, wanted to be an IAS always. Went for an Eol. However, didn’t get interview call. Shattered my confidence. Married by batchmate. Field and family life kept me busy. This year , I realised that I had two attempts left, but getting age barred next year. So started preparing. As luck should have it, got pregnant.despite that, began preparing , only to see changed prelims date to October very close to my due date. Had a c section yet on 5th day went and gave prelims.however, not sure whether I will clear. Not blaming anyone. Just feeling that had I taken leave/eol while still not a mother, I would have fulfilled my dream. I am waiting for an extra attempt if possible as per Supreme Court direction.
Honestly speaking, I developed inferiority complex after going through your story, as usual. And why not! Having passed CA intermediate with very high marks and completed my grad, both at an age of 19 years 5 months I cherished the dream of becoming an IPS officer and clearing this exam by 21/22. But then destiny had something different in store for me and needless to say I am 28 now and I am still an aspirant. Leave clearing the exam, I could never write the exam save on two occasions, and out of that, once gave blank paper as was completely unprepared and the other time didn't touch the books for 2 months before Prelims and thus fell short of cut off by some 20 marks or so. But still I am sure I will make it to list one day. :)
Anyway, I really salute you for the courage shown by you. You are already in a very elite service and even after 8 years you still have passion for getting your desirous service and in fact you are fighting for it too. And that too after being married and having a child! Hats off to you! And I wish you get the service you are aspiring for, but if not, I will say be satisfied with what you have as contentment is the supreme bliss.
