Out with a heavy heart . Gave it all in . Slogged too much . Was getting 130+ in mocks . Did almost everything right during preparation and did almost everything wrong in the exam . This is how it went :
Art and Culture/ Ancient and Medieval are achilles heel for me . Got first quarter in Set B full of them . Exhausted 40 mins .
In last 15 mins , i was left with around 30 questions. Panicked and made such stupid mistakes that i wont possibly commit in my wildest dreams .
Learnt a simple truth , very hard way . In this exam , “Mindset matters more than skillset“ . I lost my temperament, that day at that moment i lost my chance .
Was getting 86-90 from various keys . CSAT was 150+ from all keys .
But silver lining is that I have made peace with my failure . I started with Mains preparation just 2 days after Prelims . Because till I am trying , I am struggling. I have not lost it .Try , Fail and Fail better .
I have a lot to say and lot to write , but that is for some other day . For now all i have to do is focus on the process . People might not mean it seriously but if you look in hindsight, “Really , safar khoobsurat hai manzil se bhi”.
On this note , i would like to wrap my emotional pour with these lines of Faiz ,
दिल ना-उमीद तो नहीं नाकाम ही तो है,
लम्बी है ग़म की शाम मगर शाम ही तो है |
